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Dec. 18th, 2009

Eulogy

It's been almost 2yrs since Mavis's passing and I having been thinking about it a lot lately. I still miss her... And I was thinking about the Eulogy I gave at her memorial. I tried to bring up the funny stuff that happened in our almost 5yrs of marriage just so I wouldn't break down crying.... But if I had the chance to give it again this is what I would say..

Norm & Diane I just want to thank both of you for giving me the privilege and honor in being able to be married to your wonderful daughter and for accepting myself and my boys as part of your family. You guys are a rare breed.

As most of you know Mavis loved music and sang semi-professionally and she especially loved black gospel music and Brett Williams. We would often go to Calvary in Montlake Terrace and go to the monthly worship service and she would just love it. There is a quote by a Jimi Hendrix that fits Mavis perfectly and the quote is "Knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens". Mavis wasn't the most talkative person but she was always listening and thinking. Let me give you an example of how this quote fits Mavis. I have a friend here in attendance today and his name is Chris Britt. Well, Chris wanted to meet Mavis while at the rehab facility and while we were talking Mavis was just on her laptop on her favorite forum Faith & Fellowship and her My Space page. She didn't talk much but just listened as Chris and I talked and joked about the goings on at work. I then took Chris home and came back to visit further with Mavis and I asked her "What did you think about Chris Britt.... "He's a good kid... kinda rough around the edges but has a heart of gold and would do anything for just about anyone. He reminds me a lot of you. I can tell he's stubborn and won't give up for anything. Yea your right he is kinda stubborn and when I think about it he does kinda remind me of myself. Mavis continued, "I wish he would stop smoking weed... It's going to effect him later on in life." I asked, "how did you know he smokes weed?" "I can just tell" she said. She was like that with a lot of people. She could see into them and tell what kind of person they are. She was that way with me as well. Growing up my mom would sometimes say "You are a strange little boy" when I would come to a conclusion on something or do something. Most just know how to deal with me but really don't know how I tick. Mavis did. She knew how I ticked in every sense of the word. Some of our most intimate times together would be just sitting beside her and with our heads resting together or me holding her... and it was like she could tell how my day went or if anything was on my mind without any conversation and I could do the same with her. I was weird to say the least but most enjoyable. This is were we would share our most deepest conversations and it was the most awesome feeling to say the least.

There is another thing that defined Mavis and that was her treatment with others. Mavis always thought of others first before herself. When she would go for her Dialysis treatments she would always make sure that she had her cup of ice chips, used the facility and got her comfy blanket to cover herself with before she sat in the chair and her treatment started so as not to bother the technicians as they assist other patients. And when she would have to ask for assistance she would always end her request with "when you have time." She was always like that. Even with myself. I remember once when she needed help and I was helping her she started to cry and I asked her "what was the matter" and she said... "You are always so patient with me. How do you tolerate me being handicapped? I bent over and said. "It's an honor" and in between sobs she said, "Thank you."

In the military we have a term and that term is "my life is in your hands and your life is in mine." Meaning no matter what we would be there for each other even if it mean laying down our life for the other person. That is how we lived. She always no matter what defended me. Once there was a friend of hers that was poking fun at me being rough around the edges and she wouldn't say anything and finally she started to cry and said "I know he's rough around the edges but I love him deeply, please stop making fun of my husband. But that's how we ran our marriage. She knew that at the drop of the dime I would lay down my life for her and she knew I would do the same for her.

Mavis once asked me, "Ya know what's funny? I can't remember ever being single. I can only remember being married to you". I said "yea I know. I am the same way." She continued, "It's like we were meant to be together." And we were. I don't think there are many that know me like she did. We went through a lot together and she always was more at ease when I was there with her.

There is one thing I am grateful of though. I was there when she passed. I was the first one to give her CPR and was there standing at the back of the Ambulance as the medics were working on her just in case she were to come to and I would be the first person she saw to reassure her that everything is going to be ok.

Even though it's been two years I can still hear Mavis with her wheel chair and her walker and smell her favorite perfume. It's strange though. Two years have passed and at times her passing feels like it happened yesterday.

Sometimes I feel guilty.... Guilty cause she gave so much and I feel like I gave so little...... I took and took and took and took until she died.... I know I didn't but sometimes that's how I feel...

At times I feel like someone just reached in into my chest and just ripped out my heart... I feel like a shell of my former self.... I am alive but not living.....

One night several months ago I had a dream that there was a knock on the door and and upon answering the door Mavis was there in her wheelchair. I said you are supposed to be dead.. what happened and she said that there was some mix up and and the person that passed away looked like her but wasn't her and she was trying to get back to me and the boys as soon as she could... I went to hug her and I woke up......

I remember in my final quarter in college I had to take speech... and at the end of the year we had to fill out cards with 3 traits of fellow students... I got one from my college instructor and it had written.... "Your never ending love for your wife. I asked him how do you know how much I love my wife.... He said when you talk about her you light up and you smile..... I wished I felt like that again.... I really do.

Dec. 13th, 2009

Luke 14:16-24; Matthew 22:14

Here is a Homily from one of the Priests at church... I thought it was really good and asked him if I could post it on my Journal and he said sure just don't give out my name.

In the Name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. Amen

Christ is in our midst!

Dear brothers and sisters:

When the Son of God came into the world at Christmas, people were too busy. They seem to have no time for him; and there was no room for Him in the inn. He came to His own people, "and they that were His own received Him not" - as we read in the Scriptures. And it seems that still today we have no room for Him at all! We crowd Him out with so many other things, especially with our busyness.

In today's Gospel lesson the Lord Jesus tells us a parable about busy people. But in order to grasp the full meaning of the story we must connect our minds to the times of Jesus.

At that time, the Jews had a series of ever-recurring conventional images of what would happen when God broke into history and when the golden days of the new age arrived with the coming of the Christ. One of these images is the picture of the Messianic Banquet. They thought that on that day God would give a great feast to His own people at which Leviathan, the evil sea monster, would be part of the food, being this way conquered forever.

It is of this banquet that the man who spoke to Jesus on verse fifteen was thinking when he opened his mouth and said: "Blessed is he who shall eat bread in the kingdom of God." For us Orthodox Christians, this man unwittingly declares with his words the ultimate beatitude if we truly understand the bread as the eternal communion with the triune God through Jesus Christ the Savior.

Now, when he spoke of the happiness of these who would be guests at the banquet he was thinking of Jews, and of Jews only. Orthodox Jews would never have dreamed that sinners, outcasts, and gentiles would find a place at the feast of God. This is why Jesus immediately responded with this parable that we just heard in today's Gospel. He wanted to crush all misconceptions, and reveal the truth about the coming of the Messiah and God's banquet at the end of the age.

In Palestine, where Jesus lived, when a man planed a feast, the day was announced long beforehand and invitations were sent out and accepted; but the hour was not announced; and when the day came and all things were ready, servants were sent out to summon the already invited guests. To accept an invitation beforehand and then refuse it when the day came was a grave insult.

In the parable the master stands before God, and the originally invited guests stand for the Jews. Throughout all their history they had looked forward to see the day when God would break in; and when He did, they tragically refused His invitation. The poor people from the streets and lanes sand for the tax-collectors and sinners who come to Jesus in a way in which the Orthodox Jews never did. Those gathered in from the roads and hedges stand for us - the gentiles / the non-jews, for whom there was still ample room at the feast of God. And so, when the Jews refused God's invitation and left His table empty, the invitation wen out to all the gentiles, compelling them to come to the feast through love.

But through this parable spoke with a threat to the Jews who had refused God's invitation, and with undreamed glory to the sinners, the outcasts, and the gentiles who had never dreamed of receiving it, there are some truths in it which are forever permanent and as new as today. In this parable those invited to the banquet offered their excuses for not being able to come, and men's excuses do not differ so very much today.

As we heard, They were too busy: one with his farm, one with his Oxen, and another with his wife. What Jesus is telling us here is that man can become so busy making a living that he can neglect to make a life; God can be crowded out so easily by the trivial and the frivolous that the things that matter most can be at the mercy of the things that matter least; and those duties in life that keep us from having communion with God are not indeed legitimate duties at all but false idols, and therefore grievous sins.

The people in the parable, as we know, all made excuses and all were please of being busy with their own affairs. C.S. Lewis, as a very wise Christian, said in one of his writings that the devil captures many not by preventing their spiritual encounters with God, by whispering at precisely the right moment that just now they are too busy - perhaps in another time. How true is the propular proverb: "When the devil can't make you bad he makes you busy."

We, who complain that we have no time, have far more time than our ancestors had. They had to wash their clothes down at the river, bake their own bread, and carry home their own water. We have a short work week, two to four-week vacation, and a slew of paid holidays. We have cars with automatic shifts. We light and heat our homes by pushing buttons. We have automatic washers and dryers, vacuum cleaners, microwave ovens, garbage disposals, and remote controls to switch the TV programs on and off from our chairs.

Each day technology is increasing with the use of computers and software programs that make our workload easier, and yet we often find ourselves complaining that we have no time and we are too busy: Too busy to go to church, too busy to take spiritual food, too busy to find time at home for prayer, and too busy to thank God for all His blessings. We cannot seem to find even a few minutes a day to read God's personal letter to us - the Holy Bible. We simply act as if God's invitation never came.

When do we stop to nurture our spiritual life? When do we stop to medicate in God's commandments? When do we stop meet our Lord in prayer? When do we stop to sit at the feet of Jesus as Mary, the sister of Lazarus, did to learn to distinguish between what is important and what is trivial? "Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things. But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that part, which will not be taken away from her" (Luke 10:41).

A man who was a frequent visitor to America said that the first time he visited this country, he thought that the main aim to Americans was money; the second time he thought that the main aim was power; and the third time the thought that the main aim was speed. For the great majority of visitors, to accomplish as much as we can in an hour, and to be always busy.

Could it be that the result of all this fast living is fast dying? Listen to these words of a pastor: "On friday night, a man boasted to me that he had not taken a vacation in twenty-five years. He was too busy selling insurance. The following Monday I conducted his funeral. He died of a heart attack." Fast living... Fast dying... And the tragedy of it all is that we end up missing the banquet. We miss the greatest gift of all: Communion with God and the eternal life through Jesus Christ our Savior.

No one was ever busier than Jesus. He was-and-is God. The problems of the whole universe were on His shoulders. His responsibilities were far greater than ours, but he was in much less of a hurry. He withdrew frequently from the busy rounds of life to lonely mountain sports for quiet communication with his Fater. We read in Matthew; "And when He had sent the multitudes away, He went up into the mountain apart to pray.

How important that we follow his example! In our loud, confused, topsy-turvy world in which each of us on the go from morning to night, hurrying and scurrying from one thing to another, how important that we stop at appointed intervals and with faith wait upon the Lord in prayer. After all, He is the only One who can sustain us; for He is our life, our hope, and our strength; without Him we can do nothing!

May Christ God help us each day to imitate His life, and to follow His example of faith and prayer, as the Forefathers, Saint Herman of Alaska, and all the Saints did in their lives. Amen

Dec. 8th, 2009

Multiculturalism and Marxism

By Frank Ellis

An Englishman Looks at the Soviet Origins of Political Correctness

"For the purposes of everyday life it was no doubt necessary, or sometimes necessary, to reflect before speaking, but a Party member called upon to make a political or ethical judgment should be able to spray forth the correct opinions as automatically as a machine gun spraying out bullets." – George Orwell, "1984"

No successful society shows a spontaneous tendency towards multiculturalism or multiracialism. Successful and enduring societies show a high degree of homogeneity. Those who support multiculturalism either do not know this or, what is more likely, realize that if they are to transform Western societies into strictly regulated, racial-feminist bureaucracies they must first undermine those societies.

This transformation is as radical and revolutionary as the project to establish Communism in the Soviet Union. Just as every aspect of life had to be brought under political control in order for the commissars to impose their vision of society, the multiculturalists hope to control and dominate every aspect of our lives. Unlike the hard tyranny of the Soviets, theirs is a softer, gentler tyranny but one with which they hope to bind us as tightly as a prisoner in the Gulag. Today's "political correctness" is the direct descendent of Communist terror and brainwashing.

Unlike the obviously alien implantation that was Communism, what makes multiculturalism particularly insidious and difficult to combat is that it usurps the moral and intellectual infrastructure of the West. Although it claims to champion the deepest held beliefs of the West, it is in fact a perversion and systematic undermining of the very idea of the West.

What we call "political correctness" actually dates back to the Soviet Union of the 1920s (politicheskaya pravil'nost' in Russian), and was the extension of political control to education, psychiatry, ethics, and behavior. It was an essential component of the attempt to make sure all aspects of life were consistent with ideological orthodoxy – which is the distinctive feature of all totalitarianisms. In the post-Stalin period, political correctness even meant that dissent was seen as a symptom of mental illness, for which the only treatment was incarceration.

As Mao Tse-Tung, the Great Helmsman, put it, "Not to have a correct political orientation is like not having a soul." Mao's "Little Red Book" is full of exhortations to follow the correct path of Communist thought, and by the late 1960s Maoist political correctness was well established in American universities. The final stage of development, which we are witnessing now, is the result of cross-fertilization with all the latest "isms:" anti-racism, feminism, structuralism, and post-modernism, which now dominate university curricula. The result is a new and virulent strain of totalitarianism, whose parallels to the Communist era are obvious. Today's dogmas have led to rigid requirements of language, thought, and behavior, and violators are treated as if they were mentally unbalanced, just as Soviet dissidents were.

Some have argued that it is unfair to describe Stalin's regime as "totalitarian," pointing out that one man, no matter how ruthlessly he exercised power, could not control all the functions of the state. But, in fact, he didn't have to. Totalitarianism was much more than state terror, censorship, and concentration camps; it was a state of mind in which the very idea of a private opinion or point of view had been destroyed. The totalitarian propagandist forces people to believe that slavery is freedom, squalor is bounty, ignorance is knowledge, and that a rigidly closed society is the most open in the world. And once enough people are made to think this way, it is functionally totalitarian even if a single dictator does not personally control everything.

Today, of course, we are made to believe that diversity is strength, perversity is virtue, success is oppression, and that relentlessly repeating these ideas over and over is "tolerance and diversity." Indeed, the multicultural revolution works subversion everywhere, just as Communist revolutions did: judicial activism undermines the rule of law; "tolerance" weakens the conditions that make real tolerance possible; universities, which should be havens of free inquiry, practice censorship that rivals that of the Soviets. At the same time, we find a relentless drive for equality:

The Bible, Shakespeare, and rap "music" are just texts with "equally valid perspectives;" deviant and criminal behavior is an "alternative life-style."

Today, Dostoevsky's "Crime and Punishment" would have to be repackaged as "Crime and Counseling."

In the Communist era, the totalitarian state was built on violence. The purges of the 1930s and the Great Terror (which was Mao's model for the Cultural Revolution) used violence against "class enemies" to compel loyalty. Party members signed death warrants for "enemies of the people" knowing that the accused were innocent, but believing in the correctness of the charges. In the 1930s, collective guilt justified murdering millions of Russian peasants. As cited by Robert Conquest in "The Harvest of Sorrow: Soviet Collectivization and the Terror-Famine" (p. 143), the state's view of this class was, "not one of them was guilty of anything; but they belonged to a class that was guilty of everything." Stigmatizing entire institutions and groups makes it much easier to carry out wholesale change.

This, of course, is the beauty of "racism" and "sexism" for today's culture attackers – sin can be extended far beyond individuals to include institutions, literature, language, history, laws, customs, entire civilizations.

The charge of "institutional racism" is no different from declaring an entire economic class an enemy of the people. "Racism" and "sexism" are multiculturalism's assault weapons, its Big Ideas, just as class warfare was for Communists, and the effects are the same.

If a crime can be collectivized all can be guilty because they belong to the wrong group. When young whites are victims of racial preferences they are today's version of the Russian peasants. Even if they themselves have never oppressed anyone they "belong to the race that is guilty of everything."

The purpose of these multi-cultural campaigns is to destroy the self. The mouth moves, the right gestures follow, but they are the mouth and gestures of a zombie, the new Soviet man or, today, PC-man. And once enough people have been conditioned this way, violence is no longer necessary. We reach steady-state totalitarianism, in which the vast majority know what is expected of them and play their allotted roles.

The Russian experiment with revolution and totalitarian social engineering has been fully chronicled by two of that country's greatest writers, Dostoevsky and Solzhenitsyn. They brilliantly dissect the methods and psychology of totalitarian control. Dostoevsky's "Devils (Oxford World's Classics)" has no equal as a penetrating and disturbing analysis of the revolutionary and utopian mind.

The "devils" are radical students of the middle and upper classes flirting with something they do not understand. The ruling class tries to ingratiate itself with them. The universities have essentially declared war on society at large. The great cry of the student radicals is freedom: freedom from the established norms of society, freedom from manners, freedom from inequality, freedom from the past.

Russia's descent into vice and insanity is a powerful warning of what happens when a nation declares war on the past in the hope of building a terrestrial paradise. Dostoevsky did not live to see the abominations he predicted but Solzhenitsyn experienced them first hand.

"The Gulag Archipelago" and "August 1914" can be seen as histories of ideas, as attempts to account for the dreadful fate that befell Russia after 1917. Solzhenitsyn identifies education and the way teachers saw their duty as instilling hostility to all forms of traditional authority as the major factors that explain why Russia's youth was seduced by revolutionary ideas. In the West, during the 1960s and 1970s – which can collectively be called "the 60s" – we hear a powerful echo of the collective mental capitulation of Russia that took place in the 1870s and continued through the revolution.

One of the echoes of Marxism that continues to reverberate today is the idea that truth resides in class (or sex or race or erotic orientation). Truth is not something to be established by rational inquiry, but depends on the perspective of the speaker. In the multicultural universe, a person's perspective is "valued" (a favorite word) according to class. Feminists, blacks, environmentalists and homosexuals have a greater claim to truth because they are "oppressed." In the misery of "oppression" they see truth more clearly than the white heterosexual men who "oppress" them. This is a perfect mirror image of the Marxist proletariat's moral and intellectual superiority over the bourgeoisie. Today, "oppression" confers a "privileged perspective" that is essentially infallible. To borrow an expression from Robert Bork's "Slouching Towards Gomorrah," black and feminist activists are "case-hardened against logical argument" – just as Communist true believers were.

Indeed, feminist and anti-racist activists openly reject objective truth. Confident that they have intimidated their opposition, feminists are able to make all kinds of demands on the assumption that men and women are equal in every way. When outcomes do not match that belief, this is only more evidence of white-male deviltry.

One of the most depressing sights in the West today, particularly in the universities and in the media, is the readiness to treat feminism as a major contribution to knowledge and to submit to its absurdities. Remarkably, this requires no physical violence. It is the desire to be accepted that makes people truckle to these middle-class, would-be revolutionaries. Peter Verkhovensky, who orchestrates murder and mayhem in The Devils, expresses it with admirable contempt: "All I have to do is to raise my voice and tell them that they are not sufficiently liberal." The race hustlers, of course, play the same game: Accuse a late-20th century liberal of "racism" or "sexism" and watch him fall apart in an orgy of self-flagellation and Maoist self-criticism. Even "conservatives" wilt at the sound of those words.

One of the echoes of Marxism that continues to reverberate today is the idea that truth resides in class (or sex or race or erotic orientation).
Ancient liberties and assumptions of innocence mean nothing when it comes to "racism:" You are guilty until proven innocent, which is nearly impossible, and even then you are forever suspect. An accusation of "racism" has much the same effect as an accusation of witchcraft did in 17th century Salem.

It is the power of the charge of "racism" that stifles the derision that would otherwise meet the idea that we should "value diversity." If "diversity" had real benefits whites would want more of it, and would ask that yet more cities in the U.S. and Europe be handed over to immigrants. Of course, they are not rushing to embrace diversity and multiculturalism; they are in headlong flight in the opposite direction. Valuing diversity is a hobby for people who do not have to endure its benefits.

A multicultural society is one that is inherently prone to conflict, not harmony. This is why we see a huge growth in government bureaucracies dedicated to resolving disputes along racial and cultural lines. These disputes can never be resolved permanently because the bureaucrats deny one of the major causes: race. This is why there is so much talk of the "multicultural" rather than the more precise "multiracial." Ever more changes and legislation are introduced to make the host society ever more congenial to racial minorities. This only creates more demands, and encourages the non-shooting war against whites, their civilization, and even the idea of the West.

How is such a radical program carried forward? The Soviet Union had a massive system of censorship – the Communists even censored street maps – and it is worth noting there were two kinds of censorship: the blatant censorship of state agencies and the more subtle self-censorship that the inhabitants of "peoples democracies" soon learned.

The situation in the West is not so straightforward. There is nothing remotely comparable to Soviet-style government censorship and yet we have deliberate suppression of dissent. Arthur Jensen, Hans Eysenck, J. Philippe Rushton, Chris Brand, Michael Levin, and Glayde Whitney have all been vilified for their racial views. The case of Prof. Rushton is particularly troubling because his academic work was investigated by the police. The attempt to silence him was based on provisions of Canadian hate speech laws. This is just the sort of intellectual terror one expected in the old Soviet Union. To find it in a country that prides itself on being a pillar of Western liberal democracy is one of the most disturbing consequences of multiculturalism.

A mode of opinion control softer than outright censorship is the current obsession with fictional role models. Today, the feminist and anti-racist theme is constantly worked into movies and television as examples of Bartold Brecht's principle that the Marxist artist must show the world not as it is but as it ought to be. This is why we have so many screen portrayals of wise black judges; street-wise, straight-shooting lady policemen; minority computer geniuses; and, of course, degenerate white men. This is almost a direct borrowing from Soviet-style socialist realism, with its idealized depictions of sturdy proletarians routing capitalist vermin.

Multiculturalism has the same ambitions as Soviet Communism. It is absolutist in the pursuit of its various agendas, yet it relativizes all other perspectives in its attack on its enemies. Multiculturalism is an ideology to end all other ideologies, and these totalitarian aspirations permit us to draw two conclusions: First, multiculturalism must eliminate all opposition everywhere. There can be no safe havens for counter-revolutionaries. Second, once it is established the multicultural paradise must be defended at all costs. Orthodoxy must be maintained with all the resources of the state.

Such a society would be well on its way to becoming totalitarian. It might not have concentration camps, but it would have re-education centers and sensitivity training for those sad creatures who still engaged in "white-male hegemonic discourse." Rather than the hard totalitarianism of the Soviet state we would have a softer version in which our minds would be wards of the state. We would be liberated from the burden of thought and therefore unable to fall into the heresy of political incorrectness.

If we think of multiculturalism as yet another manifestation of 20th century totalitarianism, can we take solace in the fact that the Soviet Union eventually collapsed? Is multiculturalism a phase, a periodic crisis through which the West is passing, or does it represent something fundamental and perhaps irreversible?

Despite the efforts of pro-Soviet elements, the West recognized the Soviet empire as a threat. It does not recognize multiculturalism as a threat in the same way. For this reason, many of its assumptions and objectives remain unchallenged. Still, there are some grounds for optimism, for example, the speed with which the term "political correctness" caught on. It took the tenured radicals completely by surprise, but it is only a small gain.

In the long term, the most important battleground in the war against multiculturalism is the United States. The struggle is likely to be a slow, frustrating war of attrition. If it fails, the insanity of multiculturalism is something white Americans will have to live with. Of course, at some point whites may demand an end to being punished because of black failure. As Prof. Michael Hart argues in "The Real American Dilemma" (published by New Century Foundation and available from American Renaissance (http://www.amren.com) for $11.95, postage paid), there could be racial partition of the United States. We may find that what happened in the Balkans is not peculiar to that part of the world. Race war is not something the affluent radicals deliberately seek but their policies are pushing us in that direction.

I have argued so far that the immediate context for understanding political correctness and multiculturalism is the Soviet Union and its catastrophic utopian experiment. And yet the PC/multicultural mentality is much older. In "Reflections on the Revolution in France," Edmund Burke offers a portrait of the French radicals that is still relevant 200 years after he wrote it:

"They have no respect for the wisdom of others; but they pay it off by a very full measure of confidence in their own. With them it is sufficient motive to destroy an old scheme of things, because it is an old one. As to the new, they are in no sort of fear with regard to the duration of a building run up in haste; because duration is no object to those who think little or nothing has been done before their time, and who place all their hopes in discovery."

Of course, multiculturalism is far from being a solution to racial or cultural conflict. Quite the contrary. Multiculturalism is the road to a special kind of hell that we have already seen in this gruesome 20th century, a hell that man, having abandoned reason and in revolt against God's order, builds for himself and others.

Dec. 5th, 2009

House Remodel

Alice and I have been going through the process of having the house remodeled and it looks awesome!! The chimmney is gone and we got rid of the carpeting and a totally new designed bathroom. Now they are going to start on the addition which is going to be our new master bedroom and Rodney's room is going to be the office/study. We also have new sheetrock throughout the house as well. It's added a ton of room to the Kitchen and the house overall. I am excited about it!!

Dec. 4th, 2009

Seeing Things As They Really Are Fr. Antony Hughes

Sermon Preached on Sunday, November 22, 2009

Luke 12:16-21 (9th Sunday of Luke)

What does it mean to be "rich towards God"? All human beings are intrinsically "rich towards God" because we are made in His divine image and likeness. The problem is that we have forgotten who we are. Abraham Heschel once wrote, "Man is a messenger who has forgotten the message."

The Holy Fathers often echo the ancient admonition to "know thyself." Orthodox mystics consider self-knowledge to be the greatest of the spiritual gifts.

We do not know who we are. Why? Because we consist of two realities: we are both physical and spiritual; the one we can see the other we can't. We know we have bodies. All our five senses revolve around the fact that we have a body. It takes no more effort than looking in the mirror to see that. But the spiritual part, that is something different entirely. We cannot see it. What evidence is there for the soul? Where is it? What does it look like? How does it work? Do we have any control over it? The idea of the soul sounds either like a fantasy or like far too much work so we would rather just stick with the physical. And we say, "It's ok for those poor fanatics who care about invisible things (they are a little crazy anyway, right?), but as for me, I am just not religious."

So, the race is on. The decision is made. I will chase the Great American Dream for it is the only reasonable road to happiness. And if I can find some church that agrees with that, well maybe I will join up and get a little divine help in pursuing my material happiness. If not, then it means that spirituality is as irrelevant to my life as I have always thought and I will proceed without it. It turns out, in the end that we end up chasing a dream that can never come true. The happiness we seek, when it comes, never stays for long.

While we are busy making our ways in the world we still feel something inside, a dissatisfaction, a slight discomfort, a feeling that something isn't quite right. We aren't really happy and we don't know why. Nothing seems to fill the hole we feel inside no matter how hard we try to fill it. So after we fill up the barns we have and find no lasting satisfaction in them, we accumulate more stuff and build bigger ones. Still, the excitement doesn't last and we think, "I will build an even bigger one! That will do it! Just one more!" But that doesn't do it either. Happiness is always just one step, one barn, one trophy spouse, one toy, one achievement away. Always just around the bend.

The excitement over winning the lottery fades quickly, dissolving into that black hole inside we sense is ready to devour us. It is the fear of that interior emptiness that drives us so relentlessly. Life turns into a frantic exercise in trying to stay ahead of the uneasy feeling that is biting at our heels. It is an exhausting way of life with only momentary benefits and finally comes the day when it all ends in death and all we have worked for crumbles into dust or ends up in somebody else's hands leaving us nothing to hold on to.

It is easy to understand the existentialists, nihilists and the writer of Ecclesiastes, "vanity of vanity, all is vanity." Why? Because we have forgotten the message. We are made in the image of the invisible God. If we ignore invisible things we are badly missing the boat. The road to happiness does not lie without, it lies within. When we finally recognize that everything we can put our hands on is passing away and everything we can gather is like sand through our fingers, then we begin to regain our memory. We are made in God's image. Nothing we can see, touch or gather can make us happy, but God can.

Until we pay attention to the vague sense of uneasiness we feel and get a handle on what that is all about, we will never find the way out. We have to stop trying to make it go away with whatever it is that gives us momentary relief and get on with finding some real answers. This means we have to stop running away and face the music. We need a little courage. It is, as we suspected, not an easy road. There is a barn made by God inside of us that needs filling. It is much bigger than we could ever build and there is only one thing that can fill it.

"Man is an animal which has been given the vocation to become God." The only real and lasting happiness we will find in life comes in connecting with this truth and living it out moment by moment. That black hole of a barn inside begins to close when Jesus is allowed to enter our conscious lives for He is the only one who can fill that immense and infinite space.

And it is simple, oh so simple. Once we have opened that door our job is to keep the door open! How? By living each moment with a conscious awareness of our vocation and the Lord's presence. By living each moment as if life really mattered. By learning to see God in every blade of grass, in every changing leaf, in every child, in every friend, in every neighbor, in every stranger. By mining the great treasure that God has placed in our depths by meditation and prayer. By touching the divine image deeply. By rejoicing that we have been so marvelously and gloriously made. By learning to sing His praises with every breath we take. And ultimately by silence.

The Name of God in the Old Testament cannot be pronounced. It is represented by four letters in Hebrew called the sacred tetragrammaton, YHVH. Although unpronounceable one can try, but the only sound you can squeeze out of those mysterious, sacred letters is the sound of the breath going in and going out. Thus, with every breath, whether we know it or not, we are saying the Name of God. The secret is to remember this as often as we possibly can. It is as simple as that. This is the foundation of Christian spirituality. That is how we have been made. That is how close God is to us. He is in the very air we breathe and in every breath we take. When we become conscious of this, a new life takes root and one little breath at a time we begin to wake up from our long sleep and see things as they really are. At last we begin to remember who and why we are.

Who stole Christmas? – A consumerist Nativity story By Fr. Vasile Tudora

From time to time even a benign shopping session at Walmart can give you insight on the status of our society today. The other night, as part of pre-Christmas preparation, I was looking for a copy of the recent Hollywood movie “The Nativity story”. After scouting for a while with no avail in the helter-skelter of the multi-media proposals, I noticed something that I sought would relief me from my fruitless search: a Christmas movies stand! Glazing with joy I instantly told myself: were would the Nativity story movie be better placed but there? So with all my hopes up I eagerly approached the booth of my “salvation” and started browsing through the colorful covers.

All the favorite Christmas movies were there: Miracle on 34th Street, Dr. Seuss: How the Grinch Stole Christmas, National Lampoons Christmas Vacation, Jingle all the way and so on. All the usual and unusual Christmas characters were represented: Santa the red/white fat sensation, Rudolph the red nose reindeer, Grinch the villain and even Arnold Schwarzenegger the current governor. All kinds of Christmas stories were told with one notable exception: The Nativity story! Not only that I did not found the movie I was looking for, surprising for a Hollywood production, but I could not find any movie that will tell, albeit in part, anything about the birth of Jesus Christ. It was like Christmas had no Christ in it, like the One that started this whole celebration period was pushed out, devoid of any copy right in the greatest plot of all times.

I realized in that moment that Christmas was stolen away from Christians, melted in the furnace of the secular society and remolded in a totally new form that has nothing to do with the original. Under the influence of the pluri-cultural, post-modern, post-Christian society of the day, the pure gold of the Christian faith, that made Christmas possible in the first place, has being mixed with a myriad of pagan, esoterical and secular influences that have perverted the core of the incarnation of God celebration.

For most of the people Christmas is not anymore Nativity, and I think a lot has to do with this name change. Nativity is an unequivocal term: we name exactly what we are celebrating: the birth of our Savior, nobody can take that away if we call it like this. The English word Christmas is however broader term. Coming from Catholic tradition of the Midnight Christmas Mass it can in fact be used to name any day: after all every service we are performing in Church, is dedicated to Christ, so can be a Christ-Mass. From this already generic terminology recently sprung the term Xmas, an apparently benign spelling leap that led to a total hijacking of this great feast of the Church. Using the X as a placeholder the “Christ” in “Christmas” can be conveniently replaced by anything or anyone you have in mind. As a consequence, what started as a religious holy-day was transformed into a “hip” celebration that has cut any links with its sacred roots.

But the Christmas name is not the only suffering radical transformations. Take for instance Santa. Santa is as post-modernist and multi-cultural as you can get. He started as Saint Nicholas, went to Sinter-Klaas and ended up as the more familiar and conveniently neutral Santa. Santa can be anything. He is part saint, part magician, part entrepreneur, part farmer, part entertainer. His body mass evolved over the years from the ascetic allure of St. Nicholas to a more and more generous round fat belly that expands as the material goals of our consumerist society grow larger and larger.

What can we say then about the Nativity Lent? Ask any Westerner about it and they will look at you as you were coming from Mars. They will explain that Christmas is not about abstaining, is about overindulging. Now is the time when they say to their souls “Soul, you have ample goods laid up for many years; relax, eat, drink, be merry.”(Luk 12:19). It is like they are so happy that Christ is coming that they need to eat all the food before He comes so He can lead them into ascetic life because there is no food left!

So in today’s world what is Christmas? Let me give you an insight from Oprah Winfrey’s article “Oprah’s Christmas party”: “Christmas is a feeling in your heart. And whether you’re commemorating Chanukah, Kwanzaa, or December 25, the celebration is meaningful only if the spirit of the day lives strong in you all year round.” Can we go any vaguer than that? What about Ramadan? Can we fit that in too? Apparently so because now you can buy as a Christmas present at Target a doll that cries out: “Islam is the light”.

Here is the picture: on Nativity day, the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ, a kid can receive, from a generic Santa, a Muslim doll, wrapped with a card that says Season’s greetings, while having dinner at a table were the 7 candles of Hanukah shine!

Don’t get me wrong, I am all for religious dialogue and tolerance, but this has gone a bit too far. There is no Truth anymore, there is no Way to follow, there is no guidance in our lives because we have disconnected ourselves from the very source of all that: God. Christ said “I am the way the truth and the life.” But they say today let’s call on Buddha too, let’s call on Mohammed too and the shamans and the witches, they are all full of wisdom.

Yes, but they only have the wisdom of man and here is what the Bible says about human wisdom: “Where is the one who is wise? Where is the scribe? Where is the debater of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world? [...] For God’s foolishness is wiser than human wisdom, and God’s weakness is stronger than human strength”. (1Co 1:20-25)

The premise of all the pretense open-minded theologians is that there are ways to God that do not involve the way of the Cross. But how do they go around Jesus, the God-Man that says “No one comes to the Father except through me. If you know me, you will know my Father also.” (Joh 14:6-7). But the way of the Cross is hard, means accepting suffering as part of life, means renouncing of this world; true, but with the unimaginable gain of moving into another dimension, from ephemeral to eternal, from material to spiritual, from perishing to everlasting.

As Orthodox Christians we approach Nativity with a more serious mindset and preparation that involves fasting, increased prayer and almsgiving. We don’t do this because we are sad for Christ is coming, on the contrary, we are glad. But we are not awaiting an earthly King that needs to be welcomed with feasts of food and gifts of gold, but a spiritual one that does not care for any of that. Christ became like one of us not for Him to indulge in this world but to give us the possibility to be like Him: spiritual, not material. But how we can do it if we are so deeply sunk into this material world? This is why we fast, to prepare for the way He leads us on, to make another step toward being masters of our own bodies and not let the bodies control us; to give priority to our spiritual nature over our physical one, to be part of a world that is not overshadowed by the greed of the Xmas rush but enlightened by the true Sun that is arising in Bethlehem.

The Nativity season should indeed be a season of joy and sharing, a season of gifts, but let these gifts come from above, let them be everlasting not perishable, let them be for our edification as citizens of the Kingdom of heaven not as statistics on a consumer report.

Christ is coming, let us glorify Him, let us return His gift of life by giving him our lives so He can take them and transform them in what we were meant to be from the creation of the world, partakers of eternity. Let’s us start by giving Him back at least his earthly birthday.

Dec. 1st, 2009

Reclaiming Christmas by By Fr. Tom Tsagalakis

Recently, I read an article written by a high school student entitled ‘Reclaiming the real Christmas before it goes year-round”. He wrote, “It’s getting near Christmas, but there’s no pressure because I finished my Christmas list in October before I went trick-or-treating. I’m still thinking about more things that I may want. I’ll probably shoot for a hefty addition to my already glorious sock and underwear drawer and maybe some equipment for my I-pod.”

“And as far as hardened Christmas traditions go, I’ll probably go to the mall for a little last-minute shopping and an extended stay on Santa’s knee. I was thinking about going to services to learn about the true meaning of Christmas when I realized I could get the same message from a delightfully animated “Charlie Brown” Christmas special. Plus, if I go to church I have to wear shoes and long pants….”

“We’ve lost control of Christmas. It’s become an enormous, unstoppable beast. Christmas has devoured December with ease, dominated November and is moving into October. When I can go to the Halloween Superstore and then go next door to find an impressive array of ornaments, we’ve lost our minds. We might as well have Christmas every two months, so there’s never pressure to beat the crowds. We need to take a look at our lives and consider what Christmas is really about. If you think the answer is in the presents, think again, because you are wrong.”

We are often seduced into thinking that Christmas is about finding that perfect gift. Many of our conversations focus on that Christmas list, what cookies we’ve baked, what line we’ve waited in, and how everyone gets stressed this time of year.

The day after Thanksgiving is often the busiest shopping day of the year. Stores push for record sales as more and more merchandise fills the shelves. You see, everyone is shopping for that special “something.” Indeed, our shopping craze has become somewhat of a national pastime.

Actually, it’s really nothing new. If we go back in time over 2000 years ago, we read about a bustling Bethlehem where people in Israel traveled to their birthplace in order to be counted for the census. We know that it was so crowded, that first Christmas in Bethlehem, that Mary and Joseph found no room at the inn. It was busy, and I wonder if anyone besides the shepherds and God’s creation even noticed the birth of Christ? I often wonder the same thing about people today.

While we are so busy buying gifts and getting ready for Christmas, how many of us actually take time to experience and recognize the importance of Christ’s birth in our lives? Truly, one of the greatest gifts ever given to human kind was God becoming man through his son Jesus, so that we could be in relationship with our creator! Christmas is a time to remember and celebrate both the birth and life of Jesus. Christmas is not a time to count gifts on our Christmas list, but to account for why and how we celebrate the birth of our Lord.

Please take time to pray, meditate and reflect on a few powerful hymns of our Holy Church. Allow these words to penetrate your heart, to stir you soul to this great gift of God becoming man! Pray it often, memorize it, and pass these prayers to others and listen to God’s gentle response:

“Oh Christ what shall we offer You for coming on earth as a man for our sake? Every creature that has its being from You gives thanks to You: the angels offer hymns of praise, the heavens give a start; wise men present their gifts and the shepherds, their wonder; the earth provides a cave and the desert a manger. As for us, we offer You a Mother, a Virgin Mother. O God who are from all eternity, have mercy on us!” Holy Nativity Vespers

“The One whom the universe cannot contain, how was He contained within a womb? He who is in the Father’s bosom, how can He be carried in a mother’s arms? All this happened as He Himself had ordered and willed, and as He pleased. He who was not limited by a human body

chose to become incarnate: for our sake, He became what He was not before. He shared our nature without losing his own. Christ is born with two natures to perfect the heavenly world. “ Holy Nativity Matins

Let us make every effort, amidst all the busyness, to quiet our souls and remember the true meaning of this joyous season. Consider opening your bible and reading the Christmas story in the book of Luke. Read Isaiah’s prophesies about the coming of Jesus. Rededicate your life to prayer and ask God to help you live out and experience the words you pray

St. Athanasios said, “Christ became man so the human person may become more God-like! May we commit ourselves and one another and our whole life to Christ our God. May the joy of Christ’s birth inspire you to grow in His grace and love always.

Faith Alone and Faith and Works in the Scriptures An Orthodox Christian Approach

I found this and thought it was a good read.... Enjoy. The link to the article is here: http://www.pravmir.com/article_672.html

The only place in the New Testament where the phrase "faith alone" is actually used is in the Letter of James 2:24, where the Scriptures say precisely the opposite: "that a person is justified by works and not by faith alone." The entire context of that passage is given below, translated from the original Greek:

14What good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no works? Can such faith save him? 15Suppose a brother or sister is without clothes and daily food. 16If one of you says to him, "Go in peace; keep warm and well fed," but gives him nothing for his physical needs, what good is it? 17In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by works, is dead.

18But someone will say, "You have faith; I have works." Show me your faith without works, and I will show you my faith by my works.

19You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder.

20You foolish man, do you want evidence that faith without works is useless? 21Was not our father Abraham considered righteous for his works when he offered his son Isaac on the altar? 22You see that his faith and his works were working together, and his faith was made complete by his works. 23And the scripture was fulfilled that says, "Abraham believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness," and he was called God's friend. 24You see that a person is justified by his works and not by faith alone.

25In the same way, was not even Rahab the prostitute considered righteous for what she did when she gave lodging to the spies and sent them off in a different direction? 26As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead.

So, if James 2:24 is the only place in the New Testament where the phrase "faith alone" is actually used and it has the opposite meaning than what is normally given it by, for example, many Protestant, evangelical and nondenominational Christians, where did their understanding of the phrase initially come from and who made it into a slogan? The answer: Martin Luther, the 16th century Reformer.

Martin Luther, in his German translation of the Bible – a translation that had as powerful an impact on the German language as the King James Version had on English – inserted the word "alone" (allein in German) in Romans 3:28 making the text read: 28For we maintain that a man is justified by faith (alone) apart from works of the law.

Roman Catholic scholars of the 16th century knew this word was not in the original Greek text of Romans 3:28 and took Martin Luther to task for this intentional mistranslation. Father Georges Florovsky, a patristics scholar and well-known Orthodox theologian of the last century who taught at Harvard and Princeton and was the dean of St. Vladimir’s Seminary in the 1950's, wrote the following about this Reformation controversy: “Luther even added the word “alone”—allein—in Romans 3:28 before “through faith” precisely to counter the words in James 2:24: “You see that a man is justified by works and not by faith alone.” What is more is that Luther became very aggressive and arrogant in his response to the criticism that he had added “alone” to the Biblical text. “If your papist makes much useless fuss about the word sola, allein, tell him at once: Doctor Martin Luther will have it so and says: Papist and donkey are one thing; sic volo, sic jubeo, sit pro ratione voluntas. For we do not want to be pupils and followers of the Papists, but their masters and judges.” Luther continues in a bantering manner in an attempt to imitate St. Paul in the latter’s response to his opponents in the Corinthian correspondence (2 Corinthians 11:22-23): “Are they doctors? So am I. Are they learned? So am I. Are they preachers? So am I. Are they theologians? So am I. Are they philosophers? So am I. Are they writers of books? So am I. And I shall further boast: I can expound Psalms and Prophets; which they cannot. I can translate; which they cannot . . . Therefore the word allein shall remain in my New Testament, and though all pope-donkeys should get furious and foolish, they shall not get the word out.” In some German editions the word “allein” was printed in larger type!”

St. Paul the Apostle
St. Paul, in discussing the basis for our judgment by God on the last day, says in Romans 2:6 that "God will give to each person according to his works." The passage in its context is given below:

6God "will give to each person according to his works." 7To those who by persistence in good works seek glory, honor and immortality, he will give eternal life. 8But for those who are self-seeking and who reject the truth and follow evil, there will be wrath and anger. 9There will be trouble and distress for every human being who does evil: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile; 10but glory, honor and peace for everyone who works for the good: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile. 11For God does not show favoritism.

Interestingly enough, in both the Letter of James 2:14-26 and at Romans 2:6-11, the New International Version, a translation done by evangelical Protestant scholars in the 1970's and the most popular translation of the Bible in the United States today, does not consistently translate the Greek word erga as "works," as I've done above. More often than not, the word is translated as "deeds" or by the phrase "by what he has done." In effect, this ideological bias in translation downplays the close connection between faith and works drawn by both the apostles James and Paul.

Do Orthodox Christians believe that we're saved by grace through faith? Yes, of course we do! St. Paul says so in his Letter to the Ephesians 2:4, 8-9. But we do not separate faith and works. Notice that even here, where St. Paul says that we are "saved by grace," he goes on to say that "we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works." As is so often the case, we need to read the rest of the passage.

4But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, 5made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved. 8For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9not by works, so that no one can boast. 10For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

Now, what does St. Paul mean here when he says that we are saved "not by works" and then in the very next verse says that we are "to do good works"? What are the "works" and what are the "good works" he is speaking of?

Orthodox Christians understand the word "works" in this passage to refer to "the works of the Law" of the Old Testament as St. Paul says below in Galatians 2:16 as found in the NIV translation:

16 we know that a man is not justified by observing the law, but by faith in Jesus Christ. So we, too, have put our faith in Christ Jesus that we may be justified by faith in Christ and not by observing the law, because by observing the law no one will be justified.

Again, what's here translated as "observing the Law" in the NIV is translated as "works of the Law" in the New King James and New Revised Standard Versions, and this phrase "works of the Law" is what the original Greek actually says. "Works of the Law" is here a reference to the ritual injunctions required by the Law of the Old Testament such as circumcision, keeping a kosher household, etc. It is not a reference to the moral life, to doing good works.

Father Ted Stylianopoulos, the long-time professor of New Testament at Holy Cross, our seminary in Boston, commenting on Galatians writes:

"St. Paul's whole point here is that the Galatian Christians had begun to practice Jewish customs like circumcision – not that they were overly ethical, something which St. Paul requires as intrinsic to the Christian life (Galatians 5:16-6:10). Overall, in his letters, St. Paul seems to distinguish three kinds of works:

1.) works of the flesh, that is, sinful attitudes and deeds (Galatians 5:19; Romans 13:12; 1 Corinthians 6: 9-11);

2.) works of the Law, that is, the ritual injunctions of the Mosaic Law like circumcision that are no longer necessary for salvation (Galatians 2:3, 12- 16; 4:10; 5:2);

3.) good works, that is, moral and ethical deeds (Romans 2:16, 21-26; Galatians 6: 7-10) on the basis of which Christians – and all people – will be judged by God (1 Corinthians 6: 9-10; Galatians 5:21; 2 Corinthians 5:10).

Thus, Paul's contrast between faith and works fundamentally concerns faith in Christ and specifically what he calls "works of the Law," namely the ritual law of the Old Testament, not the moral commandments of the Old Testament which remain valid and are fulfilled by Christ. Still, salvation is indeed "by grace…through faith" in Christ and it is a "gift of God". Faith in Christ and good works are integrated, not contrasted – much less opposed to one another – by St. Paul who everywhere exhorts and demands moral and ethical obedience to God as a necessary component of the Gospel. Paul teaches not only justification by faith but also judgment by the criterion of good works."

Nov. 15th, 2009

The Nativity Fast & Prepairing for the Birth of our LORD.

I found this in the Sunday Bulletin regarding the Nativity Fast and how it helps us to prepare for the Birth of our Lord.

The 6 weeks prior to Christmas (the Nativity of our Lord in the flesh) is a fasting period that many call Advent. Advent means "coming." It is a period of time when we find ourselves waiting for the coming of the Messiah, the Anointed One, The Christ. (All three terms mean the same thing.) For this reason, it has a different character than other fasting periods. Although there is an element of preparation involved, it is not the same as the Great Fast that precedes Holy Week and Pascha.
The liturgical preparation is limited to the two Sundays before the Nativity and the fie days leading up to the feast. Those two Sundays we are reminded of the Holy Ancestors of God and the Holy Fathers, Patriarchs, and Prophets who played a role in the coming of the Messiah. In the hymns of the Sunday cycle of services, we hear of their great faith and are called to build our own.
For most of us, we are anxious to get to the feast - We want the days to rush by. OUr preparation usually consists of shopping and decorating, not to speak of the endless parties that we are invited to attend. Here is where the notion of waiting comes into play. We must discipline ourselves through self control and patience. We are to read the Scriptures, specifically the prophecies that speak of the coming of the Messiah. We are to turn our focus to a Godly way of life that calls for sacrificing and almsgiving (acts of mercy). Let us think of charity and the giving of our time, talents and resources to others that may be in need. There is no better way to initate Christ than to be loving and charitable towards others.
A word to the wise - Put Christ back into Christmas. Find the meaning of the feast by understanding the importance of the Son of God taking on human flesh. Remember the real reason for the season is that Jesus, the Son of God, the Messiah, came into the and dwelt among men, taking on Himself the sins of the world so that we might have life in him.

Nov. 7th, 2009

when is it ever going to end...

About 3wks ago Alice told me that she was pregnant. This is a miracle since she isn't supposed to get pregnant because she has a tumor in her puitatary gland that makes here body think it's pregnant all the time. She had an appt. with the OB-GYN doctor at the U of W since she is high risk due to past surgeries. Last week she went to the hospital because she was having chest pains and they did an ultra sound and the baby was fine and right on schedule. Well yesterday Alice went to see the OBG-YN and she did an ultra sound and the doctor could not locate a heartbeat. We had a second opinion and the other doctor couldn't find it either....... When is it going to end...... when........

Nov. 3rd, 2009

It's been a long time.....

It's been a long time since I have posted and since I have some free time on my hands I thought I would bring everyone up to date on what has happened thus so far. The wife and I went on a day drive around Mt. Rainier and it was a blast. We stopped at all the lookouts and took plenty of pictures and just had a blast. Then a couple of weeks later Mike Sturm and his wife and my wife and I went to the San Juan Islands and had a romantic weekend going around the islands. We had fun and had lot's to see. We plan on going back and seeing more.

Well this past October marked the 1yr anniversary of my mom's passing.... I still miss her and at times it kills me that someone else is living in the house that I was raised in... But if I lived in that house I couldn't change anything... it would have to remain the same. Carpeting, paint, and everything would have to remain the same... It could have new carpeting but it would have to be the same kind and color.... That's how I keep what I call "Hooks to the past" When I touch or hold something that was my mom's it brings back memories. And if it was changed I would loose the hook to the past. I know it's weird but I associate memories with things... Just like my dad's 30yr Boeing watch.... I can't change the band or anything on it cause it brings back memories of the past of us going to the gun show together and hunting and fishing and so forth.

I am working at the V.A now doing desktop support and I like my job... it's challenging since not all the hospitals have the same procedures and learning those can be slightly frustrating to say the least but I am learning something new and that is always good.

Alice is doing good and so are the boys. Rodney is in Football and has enjoyed the season and when he plays he plays with everything he has. James went to Homecoming and I got him a suit (He paid half) and he looked like a million bucks. Anyhow that is all that has happened so far.

November 15th starts the Nativity Fast and getting ready for Christmas.... The Nativity Fast lasts from the 15th to Dec. 25th... and if you are Orthodox you can't eat meat or dairy. But the Metropolitan gave us in America and Canada that we can take the day off for Thanksgiving.... I look forward to Christmas.. It's not for the presents, or the commercial side of Christmas but the Birth of God in the flesh.... And all Orthodox will greet each other during the Christmas Season with "Christ is born.... Glorify Him."

Until next time.... Glory Be to God for All Things!!!

Jul. 21st, 2009

Grasshopper & The Ant

The ant works hard, in the withering heat, all summer long. He builds his house and stores supplies for the winter. The grasshopper thinks that the ant is a fool. He laughs, dances and plays the summer away, preparing nothing for the coming winter. Winter comes, the ant is safe and warm. The shivering grasshopper calls a press conference and demands to know why the ant should be allowed to be warm and fed, while others are cold and starving! CBS, NBC, ABC & CNN show up to provide pictures of shivering grasshoppers, next to a video of an ant
in his comfortable home, with a table filled with food. America is stunned by the sharp contrast! How can this be, that in a country of such wealth, this poor grasshopper is allowed to suffer this way? Kermit the Frog appears on Oprah, with the grasshopper. Everyone cries when they sing "It's Not Easy Being Green".

Jesse Jackson stages a demonstration in front of the ant's house, where the news stations film the group singing "We Shall Overcome". Jesse then has the group pray for the grasshopper's sake, and reminds the group to contribute to his group, so that he can "continue the fight" for grasshoppers, everywhere! Ted Kennedy & John Kerry exclaim, in an interview with Tom Brokaw, that the ant has gotten rich, off the back of the poor grasshopper! Both call for an immediate tax hike, to make the ant pay "his fair share"! Finally, the EEOC drafts the "Economic Equity For Grasshoppers Act", retroactive to the beginning of the summer. The ant is fined for failing to hire the proportionate number of green bugs and, having nothing left to pay his retroactive taxes, his house is confiscated by the government. Hillary Clinton gets her old law firm to represent the grasshopper, in a defamation suit against the ant. The case is tried in federal court, with a jury comprised of unemployed welfare recipients. Surprise! The ant loses the case!

The story ends, as we see the grasshopper finishing up the last bits of the ant's food, while the government house he lives in (which happens to be the ant's old house) crumbles around him, due to lack of maintenance! The ant has disappeared in the snow. The grasshopper is found, dead, in a drug-related incident. The house, now abandoned, is taken over by a gang of spiders, who terrorize this once-peaceful neighborhood.

Jul. 10th, 2009

My Unbiased Review of the HTC G1 (Google Phone)

I have had the phone for almost a month and here is my unbiased review of the device. It's pro's & con's and what needs more development.

This device would be perfect for the SOHO user who uses Google applications.

Pro's

Audio - is crisp & clear and is easily heard even with background noise. No feed back or static at all. Even in low signal areas it still has good reception.

Data - The browsing experience with the device on either the Edge or 3G networks is outstanding and with side by side tests with a iphone in 3G network the G1 opened a webpage faster than the iphone.

Synchronization - syncing Google apps is flawless and if you use Calaboration (for mac) or Google Calendar Sync (for windows) you can sync ical or outlook wirelessly with google calendar and your device without having to bother with sync software or cable to pack around. This is an awesome move and should be looked at by Blackberry and Windows.

Stability of OS - the flavor of Linux they use on this device is outstanding. it won't hang, crash or freak out on you because it's running low on memory. It's designed to keep open 6 applications open. If you open a seventh application it will close the first one. I have ran some memory intensive programs and had the device bog down but never lock, crash or go nuts cause it needed more memory.

Navigation - navigation on the device is very well laid out. you have 3 desktops. the main screen and then one to the left and then one to the right. Here you can put your most used apps and then all the others reside in a slide out tray on the desktop and from here you can pick the app you want to open. The notification bar is a stroke of genius. Here is where you get your prompts for new email, calendar events, text messages and so forth. This is an awesome feature. Also all text messages are organized as threads kinda like Gmail which is nice if you are looking for something in a long conversation of text messages with someone.

Hardware - The device feels solid and isn't hard to hold on to. I really like the rubber coating they put on the back of the device. It makes you get a solid grip so it won't slip out of your hand. The only complain that I have is if you do need to take off the back cover it's on there so tight that when you take it off it feels like you are going to break it. (but if you need to do a soft reset you can hold down the call answer, call end & menu button and this will reboot the device). I like the option of a onscreen keyboard and the physical keyboard depending on what I am typing. The touch screen is awesome and very responsive. and the best thing is you can see the screen in direct sunlight. That is a really nice feature.

Applications - you can get a wide range of programs for the device such as a memo & task manager to expand it's capabilities. They do have an office suite for it (androidoffice and Documents to go) where you can edit and create documents but both of these aren't free. But you do have a wide range of applications and most are free.

now comes the Con's.

Music - I don't know why PDA's (Blackberry, Windows & Palm) sold their soul to Satan and now have MP3 music playback.... if you wanna listen to music get a MP3 player... you can get then the size of a bic lighter. Well Google now has done this and it's one feature I don't use and not going to any time soon. So having to use HTC's adapter to use headphones really isn't that big of a deal.

It would be nice to have a basic office suite offered by OpenOffice that could be used on the device atleast to view office documents (Word & Excell).

have a bigger .pdf storage. it will only allow 1MB to be downloaded. If your pdf file is bigger you are screwed and it won't open.... unless it's in gmail then you can preview it.

Overall I think Google made a nice device and have found their nitch in life in the PDA world. I don't think they are trying to compete with the heavy weight contenders like Blackberry but are there for people who want a fun, stable device but don't want to fork out the money for the iphone.

Jul. 1st, 2009

Connecticut’s 5th Century Church

here is an article of the finding of a 5th Century Orthodox Church in what is now the State of Connecticut. It appears there were several Bishops who fled Northern Africa due to persecution for the "Land of the Setting Sun" or the "Northern Land" which is America.

To save time and work here is the link to the article: http://www.orthodoxinfo.com/general/connecticuts-5th-century-church.pdf

Jun. 22nd, 2009

The Medical "Benefits" of Smoking Marijuana: a Review of the Current Scientific Literature

Marijuana (cannabis) is the most widely used illegal drug in many developed countries.1 Medical studies have shown that the active ingredient in marijuana, delta-9-tetrahydrocannabinol (THC), might provide some medical benefits in some patients. Under the impression that these benefits were substantial, voters in California and Arizona approved initiatives allowing the use of "medical" marijuana by patients under certain circumstances. This paper represents a current review of the medical literature regarding the benefits and drawbacks of using marijuana for medical or recreational purposes. A companion paper examines the moral and biblical questions about the Christian's use of marijuana.

THC mode of action
THC Structure
THC is a cannabinoid compound, which binds to CB1 cannabinoid receptors in the human brain.2 These cannabinoids mimic naturally occurring endocannabinoids produced within the brain, but with more powerful effects. CB1 receptors are found in the cerebral cortex (primarily the frontal regions), the basal ganglia, the cerebellum, the hypothalamus, the anterior cingulate cortex, and the hippocampus.3 The effects of THC have been experimentally shown through the use of animal studies and some in vitro human studies. THC acts by inhibiting the release of neurotransmitters, including L-glutamate, GABA, noradrenaline, dopamine, 5-HT and acetylcholine. Although endocannabinoids are rapidly inactivated by the enzyme fatty acid amide hydrolase, exogenous cannabinoids, such as THC, persist for extended periods of time, resulting in the noted physiological effects.

I found this article interesting and thought provoking.... here is the link to the article: http://www.godandscience.org/doctrine/medical_marijuana_review.html

Medical benefits of marijuana
Anecdotal evidence for the beneficial effects of marijuana eventually led to the design of controlled scientific studies to examine the benefits of marijuana compared to other treatments. A 1997 review of 6059 marijuana-related articles in the medical literature revealed 194 titles on antiemetic properties, 56 on glaucoma, 10 on multiple sclerosis, 23 on appetite, and 11 on palliative or terminal care.2 Numerous studies have been performed since that time, with most concentrating on the analgesic properties of cannabis and its derivatives.

Antiemetic (anti-nausea) use

Early on, THC was been shown to effective for some patients who suffered nausea from cancer chemotherapy treatments. However, the narrow window between the anti-emetic dose and that which caused unwanted psychic effects made THC difficult to use.3 In some studies, negative side effects occurred in up to 81% of patients.4 In one of the few studies using smoked marijuana, 20% of patients dropped out of the study, while another 22% reported no relief of nausea symptoms.5 The advent of serotonin 5-HT3 receptor antagonists as new and more powerful anti-emetic drugs that were free of unwanted psychic effects has made cannabinoid use less attractive. For this reason, physicians virtually never prescribe marijuana or THC as an antiemetic for use by chemotherapy patients.6

Multiple sclerosis

Studies have shown that cannabis can relieve muscle pain and spasticity in patients suffering from multiple sclerosis7 and can control tremors in multiple sclerosis animal models.8 However, a study in ten patients with spastic multiple sclerosis showed that smoking marijuana further impaired posture and balance in those patients.9 In addition, MS patients who used marijuana had a greater number of psychiatric diagnoses and a slower mean performance time on standard neurological tests.10 Some randomized, double-blind, placebo-controlled, parallel group crossover trials have found no significant improvement of MS symptoms during cannabis plant extract use. However, in some trials patients did show an increase in aggressive behavior and paranoiac tendencies in a standard psychological test.11 Another placebo-controlled study, examining the effect of a cannabis extract on spasticity in MS, found a positive partial relief of symptoms in 40% of patients.12 A 10-week, placebo-controlled study of MS patients found that 42% withdrew due to lack of efficacy, adverse events and other reasons. Patients reported 292 unwanted effects, of which 251 were mild to moderate, including oral pain, dizziness, diarrhea, nausea. Three patients suffered five serious adverse events, including two seizures, one fall, one aspiration pneumonia, one gastroenteritis. Four patients had first-ever seizures. A minority of patients received some relief of symptoms.13 So, overall, studies show that a minority of multiple sclerosis patients can receive some symptom relief through the use of marijuana extracts or THC, although a significant percentage of patients suffer unwanted adverse effects.

Glaucoma

THC has been shown to reduce intraocular pressure in laboratory animals and humans who have glaucoma.14 However, it was found that intraocular pressure was reduced only when patients stayed under the effects of THC almost continuously.15 Since the early studies, more effective medications, such as 13-blockers and prostaglandins, have been developed to control intraocular pressure. Obviously, glaucoma medications that don't require one to be continuously high are preferable to those that have unwanted side effects.

Appetite

Regular marijuana users are aware of the phenomenon known as the "munchies." Laboratory studies have shown that THC does increase the appetite (not a good thing for most of us).16 However, for those suffering from debilitating diseases, such as AIDS-related wasting syndrome, THC has been shown to be effective in maintaining body weight.17

Analgesia (pain relief)

Some clinical studies have indicated that THC has some analgesic activity in patients with cancer.18 However, there is a narrow therapeutic window between doses that produce useful analgesia and those that produce unacceptable central nervous system effects. Several studies have shown improvement of pain at higher doses,19 while others have shown no effect or a negative effect at higher doses compared with placebo.20

Medical marijuana summary
The use of marijuana or cannabis extracts for medical treatment has been extensively studied over the last 20 years. Initial enthusiasm for THC as an antiemetic or to reduce intraocular pressure has waned with the advent of new medications that provide superior medical benefits with fewer adverse effects. The main success of THC has been found in patients suffering from AIDS-related wasting syndrome and in some cases in which patients are suffering from intractable pain. However, nearly all of these studies involved the use of controlled doses of purified cannabinoids, bypassing the adverse effects associated with smoking marijuana. Dr. Robert L. DuPont, Georgetown University School of Medicine, says that most opponents of the medical use of smoked marijuana are not hostile to the medical use of THC, while "most supporters of smoked marijuana are hostile to the use of purified chemicals from marijuana, insisting that only smoked marijuana leaves be used as 'medicine,' revealing clearly that their motivation is not scientific medicine but the back door legalization of marijuana."21

Detrimental effects of marijuana
Studies examining the efficacy of "medical" marijuana have found that a significant percentage of patients suffer from some form of adverse side effects. However, these studies have been limited to a duration of a few weeks to months. Another series of studies have examined the long-term effects of recreational marijuana use.

Dosage Problems

One of the main problems with the use of crude "medical" marijuana is that the amount of THC in the preparations varies up to 10-fold, depending upon if the marijuana is made from the flowers or the whole plant.22 Those who can afford the "good stuff" usually get a substantially higher dose of THC than those who buy the "cheap stuff." In addition, studies demonstrate a trend for increasing concentration of THC over the last ten years.23 Because of dosage problems, crude marijuana as a medical "treatment" has proved problematic, despite California's assertion that there is such a thing as "medical" marijuana.

Brain effects

Cannabis & Brain
A recent study using an MRI technique, diffusion tensor imaging, mapped the structural integrity of brain tissue in eleven heavy marijuana users and eleven age matched controls. The study found impaired structural integrity affecting the fibre tracts of the corpus callosum, suggesting the possibility that the structural abnormalities in the brain may underlie cognitive and behavioral consequences of long-term heavy marijuana use.24 Another MRI study found that heavy cannabis users had an averaged 12 per cent volume reduction of the hippocampus, and a 7 per cent reduction of the amygdala compared to controls (see image to right).25 In addition, the study found that long-term cannabis users suffered from psychotic experiences, such as persecutory beliefs and social withdrawal, in addition to the loss of memory equivalent to 15 additional years of aging.25 Another study measured slow brain potentials in response to Go and No Go conditions before, during and after marijuana smoking. The study found normal responses both before and during smoking, but severely disrupted responses 20-40 minutes later,26 during the period of peak intoxication, resembling those found in patients with lateral prefrontal cortex lesions. Another study utilized BOLD fMRI to examine the brain activation patterns in chronic marijuana users and matched control subjects during a set of visual attention tasks.27 Although all subjects demonstrated similar task and cognitive test performance, active and abstinent marijuana users showed decreased activation in the right prefrontal, medial and dorsal parietal, and medial cerebellar regions (regions affected by THC), but greater activation in various frontal, parietal and occipital brain regions. Investigators hypothesized that marijuana users had lost some functionality in parts of the brain affected by marijuana use, which was compensated in other regions of the brain. The long-term consequences of such damage was not assessed, since the average age of marijuana users was less than 30. Another study examined the ability of 25-day abstinent marijuana users to perform decision-making tasks, simultaneously measuring brain activity using PET H215O.28 The marijuana group showed greater activation in the left cerebellum and less activation in the right lateral orbitofrontal cortex (OFC) and the right dorsolateral prefrontal cortex (DLPFC) compared with the control group. The investigator concluded that heavy marijuana users had persistent decision-making deficits and alterations in brain activity.28

Short term memory

Marijuana usage severely impacts short term memory,29 probably by interfering with the hippocampus.30 Impairment is especially noted in tests that depend heavily on attention.31 Specifically, marijuana intoxication causes deficits in spatial learning tasks,32 delays in matching or non-matching tests,32-33 and impaired performance in a radial arm maze in rodents.34

Long term cognitive function

Studies have found that regular cannabis use can cause small but significant impairments in cognitive function that may persist after drug use stops.35 Heavy cannabis use in adolescence may induce subtle changes in the adult brain circuits resulting in altered emotional and cognitive performance and enhanced susceptibility for more harmful drugs of abuse in certain individuals.36 Several studies have found deficits in attention and memory in heavy marijuana users.37-39 However, normalization of cognitive function has been found with prolonged abstinence (after 28 days),38-40 although other studies have observed persistent cognitive deficits.41 Another study found that chronic cannabis use had little effect on cognitive function except for possible decrements in the ability to learn and remember new information.42

Psychiatric illness

Some marijuana users can suffer from cannabis psychosis when they take large doses over a period of time, with symptoms characteristic of paranoid schizophrenia.43 A recent study found that marijuana use significantly increased the risk of developing mental health problems among those young people who possessed a genetic high risk for schizophrenia (familial risk factors).44 Among cannabis users who developed cannabis-induced psychosis, 44.5% developed schizophrenia-spectrum disorders, with about half of those being diagnosed more than a year after seeking treatment for their cannabis-induced psychosis.45 Another study examined the associations between cannabis use and the development of mood and anxiety disorders.46 The study found no association between cannabis used and the development of anxiety disorders, although there was a significant correlation with the development of depression and bipolar disorder.46 Another study found an association between cannabis use and the development of panic attacks.47

Marijuana abuse and withdrawal

Although originally believed not be addictive, marijuana studies have shown that a substantial percentage of users suffer from abuse or dependence.48 An Australian studied found that 10.7% of marijuana users users suffered from substance abuse and another 21% suffered from substance dependence.49 Another study, in the USA, found that 46% of those interviewed had ever used marijuana and 9% of those users became dependent.50 In addition, studies have shown that addicted individuals suffer a clinically significant withdrawal syndrome, which includes craving for cannabis, decreased appetite, sleep difficulty and weight loss, and sometimes anger, aggression, increased irritability, restlessness and strange dreams.51 A study of teens showed that the overall severity of withdrawal was correlated with irritability, depression, twitches and shakes, perspiring, and thoughts and cravings for cannabis.52 Animal studies have shown that THC withdrawal leads to physiological symptoms similar to those seen in animals suffering from opiate withdrawal.53 The symptoms of withdrawal can be lessened by using the CB1 receptor agonist THC, demonstrating that cannabis use results in true addictive withdrawal.54 A recent study has shown that the withdrawal symptoms are comparable to those seen in tobacco withdrawal.55

Gateway hypothesis:

There is a tendency for marijuana users to go on to use other addictive drugs, following their initial experience with marijuana.56 Whether marijuana use predisposes individuals to drug abuse as a "gateway drug" or whether it is just the most easily available illicit drug, is not completely known. However, a study of 311 pairs of same-sex twins found that the twins with earlier marijuana use (before age 17 years) were 2–5 times more likely to use other illicit drugs, especially psychostimulants.57

Concomitant drug use

A large percentage of Ecstasy/MDMA users (90-98%) also use marijuana.58 Studies have found that each drug is functionally damaging, and polydrug users generally display cumulative neurobiological impairments.58 Another study found that those who use both drugs suffer from immunological impairments characterized by a significant decrease in interleukin-2 and an increase in anti-inflammatory transforming growth factor-β1, along with a decrease in the number of total lymphocytes, CD4+ and natural killer cells.59 Probably as a result of these immunological impairments Ecstasy/cannabis users suffered a significantly higher rate of mild infections.

Driving & cannabis

In Europe, three million people use cannabis every day and more than two thirds of those drive after having smoked cannabis.60 Over 50% of drivers in Austria, Belgium, Germany, Switzerland and the United Kingdom suspected of driving under the influence of drugs have been found to have THC in their bloodstream.60 Numerous studies have shown that driving under the influence of marijuana use results in a significant increase in motor vehicle accidents especially those resulting in fatalities or serious injuries, even with low blood concentrations of THC.60-63 These studies have been done around the world, including Canada,61 Norway,62 and France.63

Use during pregnancy

A study conducted in the Netherlands found that 2.9% of women used cannabis both before and during pregnancy.64 Factors coincident with cannabis use included use by the biological father, being single, childhood trauma, delinquency, and lower educational level.64 The reason why cannabis use is of concern is because it has been shown that THC crosses the placenta, thus entering the fetus during development.65 It has also been found that THC is secreted in breast milk, so it would fed to the newborn during breast feeding.65

A study at the University of Pittsburg examined the effect of prenatal marijuana exposure on subsequent child intelligence.66 Heavy marijuana use (one or more cigarettes per day) during the first trimester was associated with lower verbal reasoning scores on the Stanford-Binet Intelligence Scale at age 6. Heavy use during the second trimester predicted deficits in the composite, short-term memory, and quantitative scores. Third-trimester heavy use was negatively associated with the quantitative score, indicating that prenatal marijuana exposure has a significant effect on subsequent school-age intellectual development.66 Another study found that prenatal marijuana exposure in the first and third trimesters predicted significantly increased levels of depressive symptoms in 10-year olds.67 A 2006 survey of the literature revealed that cannabis use during pregnancy was associated with a number of negative outcomes in the child, including symptoms of inattention, impulsivity, deficits in learning and memory, and a deficiency in aspects of executive functions.68 Another study found no effect of marijuana on IQ, but did find that prenatal use negatively impacted executive functions, influencing the application of these skills in problem-solving situations requiring visual integration, analysis, and sustained attention.69

Use during adolescence

Adolescent exposure to cannabinoid compounds has been shown to affect the postnatal development of opioid neurons.70 These alterations are likely to produce important long-lasting functional changes in these neurons in the adult brain,71 including alterations in neuroendocrine control,72 pain sensitivity,73 and reward processes.70, 74 Animal studies have shown that cannabis exposure during adolescence can produce lasting memory deficits and hippocampal alterations75 that affect memory and social interaction.76

Hormonal effects

Since THC affects the hypothalamus, which directly or indirectly modulates anterior pituitary function, it has been hypothesized that it might affect human endocrine function. Animal and human studies have shown that THC suppresses the reproductive hormones, prolactin, growth hormone, and the thyroid axis, while the hypothalamic pituitary-adrenal axis is activated.77 However, it appears that in humans many of these effects are transitory, likely due to the development of tolerance with continued use of the drug.77

Cancer risks

Although smoking marijuana doesn't have the same degree of risk as smoking tobacco (because of the frequency of usage), smoking anything over long periods of time does add to risks of contracting forms of cancer of the respiratory tract. Studies have suggested that smoking marijuana increases the risk of both oral cancers78 and lung cancer.79 This is because marijuana smoke contains carcinogenic materials, including vinyl chlorides, phenols, nitrosamines, reactive oxygen species, and various polycyclic aromatic hydrocarbons, including Benzo[a]pyrene, which is present in marijuana tar at a higher concentration than in tobacco tar.80 Ammonia was found in marijuana smoke at levels up to 20-fold greater than that found in tobacco.81 Hydrogen cyanide, NO, NO x , and some aromatic amines were found in marijuana smoke at concentrations 3-5 times those found in tobacco smoke.81 However, absolute correlation of marijuana smoking with cancer risks are complicated by concomitant tobacco smoking and increased alcohol use among marijuana users.80

Adverse cardiovascular events

Some studies have suggested that marijuana might be a trigger for adverse cardiovascular events, including tachyarrhythmias, acute coronary syndrome, and vascular complications, especially in older users, and may be a risk factor in congenital heart defects for their children.82 Mixing marijuana with cocaine can cause cardiac problems, including the death of an otherwise healthy 31 year old male83 and an acute myocardial infarction in a 21-year old male.84

Stroke

Ischemic stroke is found almost exclusively in people of advanced age. However a number of reports have shown an association between cannabis abuse and ischemic stroke in young people85 (one at the age of 1586). Using Doppler sonography scientists were able to determine that cerebrovascular resistance and systolic velocity were significantly increased in marijuana abusers compared to the control subjects and that cerebral perfusion observed in 18-30 year old marijuana abusers was comparable to that of normal 60 year-olds.87 Another study showed that 6 of 10 subjects experienced reduced cerebral blood velocity and dizziness following marijuana use.88 One heavy cannabis user was found to have a right temporal lobe hemorrhage, which was cleared within three months by reducing cannabis use from 2–6 cannabis cigarettes per day to 3–4 cigarettes per week.89

Oral health

Marijuana users generally have poorer oral health than non-users, with an increased risk of dental caries (cavities) and periodontal diseases, along with dysplastic changes and pre-malignant lesions within the oral mucosa.90 In addition, users are prone to oral infections, possibly due to immunosuppressive effects.90

Medical Marijuana Survey 1998-2008
Marijuana studies 1998-2008
In any review of the literature, it is possible that reviewer bias can enter the picture and distort the overall impact and conclusions of the review. To mitigate potential reviewer bias, the author initiated a complete Ovid-Medline search of marijuana/cannabis research in February 2009 for the years 1998-2008. Studies were categorized as being "Very Negative," "Mostly Negative," "Neutral," "Mostly Positive," or "Very Positive." Data was collated and is presented in the figure to the right. The data shows that research on the medical effects of marijuana is becoming increasingly negative and decreasingly positive over the last 11 years of medical research. In addition, the number of studies examining the medical aspects of marijuana has increased markedly over the last 5 years, dramatically expanding our knowledge of the mostly negative aspects of marijuana usage (see original data).91

Legalize marijuana?
The California state legislature, in its infinite wisdom, is considering a bill (AB 390)92 to legalize the growing of cannabis, its use, and sale. In return, the state expects to get over a billion dollars from the sale of permits and taxes. Besides the revenue, they expect to save millions of dollars from not having to enforce marijuana laws. And, of course, we know that all the people who grow marijuana will do so legally by paying the several thousand dollar permit fee! Although the sale of marijuana is restricted to those 21 years old and older, the penalties for selling to underage persons is $100 or less. As a result of such lenient penalties, it is clear that adolescents will be able to obtain marijuana more easily, leading to increased use, which is especially troublesome given its effect upon the maturing brain. What the legislature seems to have ignored in its financial analysis is the almost astronomical costs that will be incurred through increased health care and mental health costs that will result from increased marijuana use in the population of California. In addition, the number of people driving under the influence of marijuana will increase dramatically, as it has in Europe, since its legalization there. The cost in terms of increased deaths from automobile accidents could be in the hundreds to thousands of lives lost. What are they thinking?

Conclusion
Having received dozens of emails saying how good marijuana is (mostly from "Christians"), I have felt the need for a thorough review of the scientific literature regarding the positive and negative aspects of marijuana use. The vast majority of studies show that there is no such thing as "medical marijuana." In general, physicians in the United States are not thrilled with the idea that marijuana should be allowed to be prescribed, since only 36% take that stance.93 The act of smoking marijuana is fraught with so many adverse side effects that it really isn't useful in treating symptoms in any specific disease for the vast majority of sufferers. However, the active ingredient in marijuana (THC) has been shown to be useful for some patients who suffer from chronic pain, especially in refractory cases of multiple sclerosis, and in patients who are suffering from AIDS-related wasting syndrome. Even in those diseases, a minority of patients actually derive a benefit that is without unwanted side effects. THC's use as an anti-emetic for patients suffering nausea from cancer chemotherapy or as a way to lower intraocular pressure for glaucoma has been replaced by far superior new medicines that don't have the negative side effects.

As a recreational drug, marijuana is not quite as benign as most of its proponents would claim. Heavy marijuana use results in long-term effects on the brain, including lower responses in those areas which are affected by THC. Although users are able to compensate somewhat through the use of other brain areas, the long term effects of this damage, as users age, has not been determined. This damage may be responsible for impairments noted in short-term and long-term memory, along with a host of possible other psychiatric illnesses. A proportion of marijuana users become addicted and suffer from classic withdrawal symptoms upon abstinence. For a minority of users, marijuana is a gateway drug, and they proceed to use and abuse more powerful psychostimulants. Besides its effects upon the brain, marijuana use can lead to increased risks for respiratory cancers and may have some adverse cardiovascular and cerebrovascular effects in some users. Marijuana use during pregnancy has been shown to result in lower child intelligence, while increasing the incidence of mental health problems. The idea that marijuana is a harmless recreational pastime has been disproved through continuing scientific research.

May. 31st, 2009

A Chilling Message From the OCA's Archbishop Lazar (Puhalo)

I normally don't post from other websites but I found this to be interesting and I think it applies to all Christians. Not just Orthodox.
Here is the link to the article: http://groups.google.com/group/alt.religion.christian.east-orthodox/browse_thread/thread/b1295688f7f539a2#

Friday, May 29, 2009

As some of you know, a groups of us were recently in Damascus and attended a conference at the Islamic Institute. David Goa, Fr Philip Erickson, a small group of other people and I were there. While I had to leave early, before the last series at the conference, in order to participate in a number of conferences in Romania, the Islamisation of Europe was discussed during conferences in Romania. Since returning home, I have continued researching the matter in order to make it the subject for some of my presentations in the autumn at a number of universities and Orthodox parishes down East in America. There are three salient facts that are abundantly clear, and that we should be aware of. Hopefully they might change some of our attitudes about what we are doing in the Orthodox Church, and especially in the OCA.
1. Within 20 years, Europe will be a collection of Islamic states.
2. Within 10-15 years, active Moslems are likely to outnumber active Christians in Canada.
3. Islam is preparing for a serious-minded and well financed missionary activity in the West.
The demographics are radically on the side of Islam. They do not have to convert even one person in order to be able to dominate Europe. People in Western cultures are reproducing at a rate below 1.5; Moslems living in the West are reproducing at a rate of 4-6, even 8. Christians have abortions, Moslems do not. Christians have small families: on average, 1 or 2 children; Moslems have large families, on average 6 to 8 children. Moslems maintain their traditions, most Christians do not. Commitment and attendance at Mosques outstrips that of Christian commitment and attendance in Church. Meanwhile, Orthodox Christians exhaust a great deal of energy in petty infighting; many hierarchs, particularly in Eastern Europe, have almost no personal contact with their flocks. Many hierarchs and clergy are arrogant and condescending toward the faithful. No one in the Islamic world is talking about abolishing or shortening Ramadan, but many in the Orthodox world are talking about abolishing some fasting periods, shortening others. Moslems maintain the appearance of their faith, while many Orthodox clergy are embarrassed or ashamed to be seen in public looking like Orthodox clergy. Moslems maintain the tradition of stopping to pray at the given times several times a day, while Orthodox Christians are seeking to reduce the already scant time we spend in the Divine Services. One could go on with such comparisons, but the point has to do with commitment, discipline and self-control. Faith can only be challenge by faith; commitment can only be faced with commitment. We, as Orthodox Christians cannot offer anything that will counter a committed Islamic missionary effort while we are occupied with petty self-interest, with "defending MY turf" against other Orthodox clergy. On the international level, the efforts of some to re-create a shadowy form of the Byzantine Empire is quite destructive. The divided state of the Orthodox Church today, world-wide, and the internecine power struggles undermine and weaken the Orthodox Christian witness. Self-interested fear of each other on the local level can only make the problems we face more systemic and pervasive. Moreover, they are a betrayal of the Gospel and of the faith. I simply ask that all make themselves more aware of this challenge and that we struggle, primarily with our own selves, to overcome our own pettiness and find a greater unity of spirit and purpose. Instead of having a delusion of "competition," we should be sharing the resources that each has to offer, and strengthening the commitment of our selves and the faithful. Everyone has some ability to offer, and we need to be willing to share our "self" with all for the sake of the Gospel and in order to face, with a unity of love for Christ, the challenges that are so rapidly arising before us.
In Christ,
Archbishop Lazar, Ret., Orthodox Church in America
and Abbott of All Saints Monastery (New Ostrog), Dewdney, British Columbia,
Canada

May. 13th, 2009

Mt. St. Helens trip

Mike Sturm & his wife joined Alice and I for day trip and hike at Mt. St. Helens. It was fun to say the least. We stoped over at a small creation museum that was really cool for the size. It had displays on how the eruption caused events that happened elsewhere that scientists say that happened over thousands or millions of years. Then we went on to the mountain and did a day hike around the Toutle River. You could massive mounds of deposits from the mudslide. We also saw how God has given nature the ability to repair its self. Trees are growing and animals are coming back. below are a few photos of our little journey.

Here is a pic of the Mountain as we drive up.




Here is another picture of the Mountain and the Toutle River below.




Here is another pic of the Toutle River.




Here is another pic of the Mountain and the Toutle River. The huge mounds you see are the remains of debris the mud flow left behind.





Here is a picture of a chipmunk doing his thing.




Here is a pic of a Coyote we saw looking for lunch.




Here is a close up of the huge mound of debris left from the mudflow.





Here is another picture of the Toutle River.




Here you see some of the remains of the trees that are left from the eruption.




Here is a beaver house we saw on the hike.





and here is the dam that the beavers created.




Here is my son James showing how the beavers cut down trees.




and here is a pic of my wife Alice, Myself, Martha (Mike Sturms wife), James, Rodney and mike.


Apr. 22nd, 2009

Pascha Song

Last sunday was Pascha and on Monday started Bright week. which means that everything is brigt... Clear glass for the candle holders and all the doors on the iconostas are open and we can see what goes on at the alter. It's an awesome time as well.

I found this Pascha song and thought I would share it.

People rejoice, nations hear:
Christ is risen, and brings the joy!
Stars dance, mountains sing:
Christ is risen, and brings the joy!
Forests murmur, winds hum:
Christ is risen, and brings the joy!
Seas bow*, animals roar:
Christ is risen, and brings the joy!
Bees swarm, and the birds sing:
Christ is risen, and brings the joy!

Angels stand, triple the song:
Christ is risen, and brings the joy!
Sky humble yourself, and elevate the earth:
Christ is risen, and brings the joy!
Bells chime, and tell to all:
Christ is risen, and brings the joy!
Glory to You God, everything is possible to You,
Christ is risen, and brings the joy!

Next week the Bishop is going to be here for our feast day and for Fr. John's 25th anniversary in the priesthood. Alice & I are doing coffee hour and it's going to be a surprise. I think it will go over well......

Apr. 19th, 2009

Great & Holy Pascha

Today we celebrated Pascha or the resurrection of Christ. It was an awesome service. It started at 9:30PM with the reading of the Acts of the Apostles until 11:30PM and then the Paschal service starts and it's mainly hymns the choir is singing an then choir, clergy and then the faithful file out of the church with our candles and walk around the church 3 times with the choir singing and then on the 3rd time around Fr. John went onto the church steps and then we sang "Christ is risen from the dead, trampling down death by death, and on those in the tombs bestowing life!" Then the Fr. John would Proclaim "Christ is Risen!!" and the faithful would reply with "Indeed He is Risen!!" Then we entered the church and all the lights were on all the way and all the doors were open and we finished the paschal service and then had our regular service (Divine Liturgy). Then after the service we had our Pascha Baskets blessed by the priest and then had a small potluck. We didn't get out of church until 3AM and then we were back at church at 1:30PM for Vespers (evening Service) and then we had a huge church picnic. I would have to say this was one of the best Easters I have had in a long, long time.

here is the Icon for the resurrection of Christ

Apr. 16th, 2009

Rick Warren

I really don't like many mainstream pastors much...... even though I am Orthodox I like a few such as McArthur & McGee. I guess cause they take a stand. Even though I don't agree with their stand they still hold to it. Even when under fire by the media they still will hold to their belief and not cave..... Out of all of them I like J. Vernon McGee. He avoided the media when he was alive and didn't get caught up in politics. He just taught the bible book by book, chapter by chapter & verse by verse..... However there is one person who I don't much care for is Rick Warren. I know there are a lot of people that like him and the books he's written and they have helped countless Christians. However he didn't stop with his books he's not gone on to support groups, magazine subscriptions and now politics. They recently had in California Prop. 8 which would amend the state constitution to define marriage between a man and a woman. Well he was recently on Larry King Live and was questioned on his stance on Prop 8 and so he wouldn't loose his popularity he caved. Here is the article:

by Harry R. Jackson, Jr.

Monday night on Larry King Live, Pastor Rick Warren, author of the Purpose Driven Life, waffled on his stand to support evangelical political involvement to protect marriage. He told Larry that he had sent apologies to his gay friends for how his comments about gay marriage were misconstrued. He denied that he had ever endorsed Proposition 8 in California (which amended the constitution of the state to defend marriage as being exclusively between one man and one woman) during the two years of its duration). Finally, he claimed to be totally oblivious to what was happening in Vermont concerning gay marriage.

The day after the Larry King interview I sat in the DC City Council chambers observing an unintended consequence of Pastor Warren’s statements – emboldened gay marriage advocates. Perceiving that evangelicals are weakening and that their side is turning around, gay activists are putting forth their best efforts to attempt to win their war for marriage this year. Although Warren’s statements are only one of several factors that have moved gay activists, I maintain that they are still a factor in this battle.

Let me explain.

Last Tuesday (April 7), a little before noon, I sat through the regularly scheduled monthly legislative meeting of the DC Council. There was only one item on the agenda that had to do with gay rights according to the printed agenda. For this reason, I was shocked at the boldness of the DC City Council as they voted to open the door for a marriage reciprocity measure that would allow anyone legally married in the nation to be legally received in the District.

It was obvious that the timing of the DC action was based on the perceived momentum that gay marriage activists have garnered during the last two weeks. Sitting in the chambers, I could see that the council had been waiting for the results from Vermont. In fact council members were quick to bring up the breaking news of that day and the previous week’s ruling by the Iowa Supreme Court. They left nothing to the imagination as they pushed for this measure to afford gay and other kinds of unions from around the world to have full rights of marriage.

One by one the council members unanimously declared their support of same-sex marriage and their desire to avoid being on the “wrong side of history.” Some even bragged about their leadership in this “civil rights” struggle.

Once again, everyone except the citizens has made their wishes known in this controversial arena. In New Hampshire, despite the fact that a majority of their citizens are not in favor of same-sex marriage; both houses of their legislature have voted to make same-sex marriage legal in their state. In DC they want to avoid going to the people directly about this issue.

How does Rick Warren figure into this process? In all the national interviews that I disagreeociates and I have given since last week, the Warren statements have been quoted as a sign of an impending massive defection of leaders from traditional marriage ranks. The lesson that all nationally influential preachers must remember is that our words have weight and that there is a responsibility that comes with our leadership. We must choose to be biblically courageous instead of taking the easy road of political correctness.

In the current media environment it is easy for evangelicals to feel as though we are being stereotyped and demonized. Church leaders want to be liked in order to win people to our faith. Unfortunately national notoriety attracts both praise and persecution. Often the best of us run from criticism at the wrong time. Remember the dynamics of the last few months? “Gay activists decried Warren’s selection despite the inclusion of openly gay bishop” – Gene Robinson. Media criticism of this cultural icon was intense, wrongly saying that he equated gay marriage to bestiality and pedophilia. Nothing could have been further from the truth. Thirty years of Warren’s faithful, compassionate work was being spoken of as though it was all done out of a narrow-minded, bigoted view of the world.

These accusations obviously got to Pastor Rick. Therefore, his appearance on Larry King was partially to assuage the ire of the gay activists. This is obvious if you go back and listen to the interview again. How bad is the damage? It’s hard to say, but let’s take a look at the DC legislation alone.

This law would essentially begin the process of opening the back door to allowing same-sex marriage in America’s first city. If the bill travels the tradition legislative process, it should receive final approval from the council next month. Next, it will be subject to a 30-day congressional review. Essentially this regulation will come before the entire nation by this summer.

It almost goes with out saying that a legal battle of epic proportions is undoubtedly going to ensue. To add insult to injury, a DC same-sex marriage bill may be brought to the City Council within weeks. Therefore, we need the nation to mobilize to protect marriage. Since a national congressional and legal showdown is inevitable, everyone can help.

As a resident of DC, I ask everyone reading this article to offer prayer for the nation and the city and to do the following three things:

1. Send this article to as many people as you can,
2. Challenge your pastors to inform their flocks,
3. E-mail your congressman that you support biblical marriage.

Let’s stand up for biblical righteousness and justice. Now is the time to create the change we really can believe in.

Keep the faith!

now I have some advice for Mr. Warren.. and this comes from scripture.

Rev 3: 14-22
14 And unto the angel of the church of the Laodiceans write; These things saith the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the beginning of the creation of God;
15 I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot.
16 So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.
17 Because thou sayest, I am rich, and increased with goods, and have need of nothing; and knowest not that thou art wretched, and miserable, and poor, and blind, and naked:
18 I counsel thee to buy of me gold tried in the fire, that thou mayest be rich; and white raiment, that thou mayest be clothed, and that the shame of thy nakedness do not appear; and anoint thine eyes with eyesalve, that thou mayest see.
19 As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent.
20 Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.
21 To him that overcometh will I grant to sit with me in my throne, even as I also overcame, and am set down with my Father in his throne.
22 He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the churches.

You can't please both..... you can't please God and at the same time Man...... It's either one or the other...... I ask Mr. Warren... which is it going to be??

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